natalie T

Someone

2011-03-09T22:23:00.000-08:00

Lately, met that someone who could actually make my days more enjoyable and happy. Haha. Although he's from another race, but then maybe it does not matter to me anymore. I think what really matters is the heart of someone. If you are in love with someone that his heart doesn't facing to you, it's just not that feeling, it's totally wrong. I had been miserable too, of thinking the racial problem, but somehow, just started by a friend then. One doesn't know what the consequences will be before putting a step forward right? I wish I could see or predict the future, but I could not, just the same like other ordinary people. I wish I could know and meet my Mr. Right now. One of my netfriend told me, somehow, don't find a lover just for the sake of getting in love. Hmm.. I paused a while to figure this out, no doubt it is true. So, let's just wait for the right one. While waiting, don't hesitate to get to know more people, more friends around you, those who are really keen to know more about you. One doesn't knows what will happen next. Destiny says it all.

Back to the Mr. Someone, as I had got to know him by just a few months, from my observations, he's a friend to get to know with. Happy because people around are happy. I don't know whether I'm madly in love or what, but I can just sense that he's true.

24 Feb

2011-02-23T21:43:00.001-08:00

24 Feb. Today is another day for me to survive in the crowd of Measurement and Application Exam. We were not told it was actually a mid term examination. I got so freak out of it, when I had the intention to just leave 2 questions unanswered just now. Somehow, I just tell myself to at least scribble something down on the answer sheet, though I had really no exact aim to answer it, how, where and stuff to get the answer there. I'm sick of this subject, I really need a or more tutorial lessons after this. No matter what I will get for this test, I should have to take the result with a calm heart, as I expect I had did badly on the paper. I felt bad for not doing the revising part, especially get to confirm of what I had learnt. I knew the class is like a super express train, or a bullet train, that speeds off so swiftly to the destination,that I had no way of getting what the lecturer told me clearly. The problems or faults are not only at the lecturer's side, I should be sorry for my own case too. Hmm... It's too late to say anything right now, as I could definitely not change the second the before,it's all past tense. Strive harder and get confident with this subject,seek help from others, escpecially the lecturers of this subject.
The other impression of today is happy, joyous mood as today is Summer's birthday. Get a blast, dear! May you have a good time through the days ahead. By the way, I'm still kind of anticipating my birthday to arrive. Omg, it's like nine more months to count...:S

Super Duper Wonderful Day~ XD

2011-01-09T23:34:00.000-08:00

9th January 2011. I walked a lot today, my feet are in pain but somehow I enjoyed it very much. It's not totally about the journey, it's actually about what I bought. LOL. I eventually bought a camera, compact camera for myself. I considered it as my birthday present for myself, or a Christmas present from my bf( I'm my own bf..XDD). Nikon L110. I really couldn't believe that I really buy it, maybe I were too intrigued in DSLR, but when I couldn't get satisfied with its price, I eventually got myself to buy its compact camera that looks like a DSLR...LOL...A silly trick of self cheating...XDD. But I were really attracted by its feature of zooming, 15 times of optical zoom and its under RM 900.00. So, I go for it. XD. I found myself hurrying around between shops, just to get it. Because people in shops tended to shake their heads when I asked them whether this model is available. Fortunately, I got it in one of the shop in Low Yat Plaza. Happy day never ended just there. I went to shop for my CNY's clothes by Berjaya Times Square, Pavilion. I had found myself like a kid that loiters around shopping malls, yet to be caught by the authorities in school or even by the police... LOL... Freeze !!! (both hands raised)...XDD..LOL. So, I did buy something other than my camera..XDD, I bought a dress, T-shirt, short pants, a blouse. I really enjoyed today, haha... XDD. It's the feeling of smiling within the heart, the smile that's not disguised, not pretended, just smile, not a fake one. :). Shopping is not the end of the story though, LOL. I did a really great exercise, walking from the Leisure Mall station, back to my home sweet home. You will really know the real meaning of home sweet home when you found yourself are desperate and no one around, to lend a helping hand. I just feel a great relief when I set my foot in front of my home's gate, every pains that I had got by the obstacles that I confronted had come to an end. I'm so blessed I've got back to home, I have got a home for me to get back to. Yesterday, I had Vietnamese cuisine as my dinner, prepared by my siblings, rolling up an edible rice paper with cabbage slice, slices of crabmeat, carrots, prawns, ''lap cheong'' , cucumber, fried eggs, and ''gau chung thap'' herbs. That's all for the ingredients, sorry if I left any, without mentioning.. XD. Just roll them up, and you'll enjoy this special taste of the Viets' XDD, sorry if the word ''Viets'' sounds annoying for Vietnamese. Sorry. XS. So that's all for yesterday. XD

I Don't Care

2011-01-03T01:12:00.000-08:00

By my past, I'm so addicted to find someone, quickly get into love. I consider that as my routine, hunt someone anywhere, mostly in ICQ, now I'm still doing it. Even my friends couldn't bear what I'm so indulged in chatting in ICQ. XD. Honestly, I really don't like the feeling of being alone, lonesome, forlorn, that's why I'm in there. And the consequences of being in ICQ, you will easily get insincere friends, that's why it's not hard to find my messenger had a whole lot list of netfriends, but I hardly talk to them since the first time.LOL,but it's a truth. The second threat is that you need to be more judgemental in the virtual chatting world. Anything you gave out to others will cause harm, so keep personal data very carefully just to yourself, never expose it so fast on the first chat. Be more sensible, keep that as my quote! XDD. What I want to tell about my title ''I Don't Care'' is that I really don't bother about my personal love life anymore, what's the big deal about love? It don't bothers me, so do I. I just want to be myself, just wait, not patiently, not feel like waiting, just let it be, let it don't enter my life yet, let the ''love column'' blank and I shall fill it with happy and laughters that I shared with my fellow friends and also my musics, every melodies and lyrics that were kept safely in my mind. My mind was now so compact with everything, if love is so eager to enter my life and my mind, I may need a new hard disc. LOL.. Imagine a girl with an extended mind, connecting to a hard disc, sounds silly and hilarious, and odd too...XDD. I don't care much about people out there judging on how I look, looks good? sexy? awful? super ugly? another betty? sunny girl? plumpy fat dude or wat? I don't care, why should I bother though? I believe that God have give us equally on mentally-equipped people and good-looks group, but there's still some exemptions out there where he/she is intellectually impressive with a pleasant, good look plus a perfect body. What would I say for it? They are just gifted. X). But keep them aside, life isn't just a stage of competition, showing off or flaunting your good figure, good looks so thickly applied of foundation powder, cheek powder, what so much kind of powder and bla bla... Are you the real you? Or you are just the product of XX brand cosmetics? Duhh..I know I'd started complaining on the cosmetics companies, so much out there, promoting year-end sales, promotions, free gifts, free trials, free this, free that. I had heard so much of them. Life is so stressful and I'm like a rubber band being stretched to the maximum, about to split off. Just be ourselves somehow, everyone is special in every way.Live your life to the maximum, love your life, love yourself! XD

These Few Days

2010-12-05T20:10:00.000-08:00

These few days, I couldn't access to the Internet. This was what that kept me frustrating, a bit emo and scratching my head wondering what's the idea of poor line connection. ==. I admitted that I missed someone. No more lkc now. Lkc was just like fog..soon evaporated by the warmth of the glowing sun. I think it's not the warmth of the sun anymore, but a glazing hot sun. I don't know whether I'm pushing/ forcing him too much or what. Now everything was like broken pieces of glass dropping from mid air. There are no words left to say, really nothing to say about this debris left on the cold floor. He said we are still friends, this keep me a slight hope, not on our progress of being together, but just to maintain this wounded friendship. Never mind, I told myself. There'll be someone waiting faithfully, who are willing to lend his ears, his patience and attention to me, but the thing that I can do know is just to wait. I had heard so many times of wait, wait, wait, wait , wait, ponder, ponder, wait , wait and WAIT! I had got enough of it, do I really have that chance to get in love, I'm asking God, Is there any hope in me? I'm just afraid that I'll be listening to a 'no'. By the way, not thinking the same matter will make me feel better,I believe, just hope so it would mend wherever it hurts on my body. I missed other guys too, as a friend somehow, whether they are my friends or going-to-be-bf, argh...does it matter by the way? No one really does bother about it, just leave it saying that ''it's complicated''. I missed this Alvin/ Kelvin( I preferred Alvin) Ng Xiang Tze, whom I got to know him by 16th November. Hmm.. I'm planning to steer all these ''tender'' out of my heart house. Leave it blank and absorb as much knowledge as possible. Currently the word L.O.V.E really has not much facts that are yielding to me. For God sake, it's like something that drag you from the current world, and being locked into a dark room where you just see blinking stars until you found yourself are saliva-dripping of a sick dream. I want to get out of this sickenning trap, I tried and tried and I know there'll never be a way out. Our lives are surrounded of love, even our existance is because of love, I were left speechless of the fact. But we must face it, accept it somehow. I can just say I had much experiences of being neglected, being rejected and I don't know the reason why. Maybe I'm not that pretty enough, not that slim enough, not up to the standard in their eyes and mind. What-so-ever. I'm sick of it. Very sick. Craving to get out of it. Like one of my net friend just said, be yourself, be natalie ~ X)

29 Nov

2010-11-28T21:58:00.000-08:00

I think life is like a box of chocolate. You will never know what you will get. Life is full of surprises, awaits us to open every box of surprises, like what the quote said, you will never know what you will get. Whatever you get, take it with a calm heart. I found myself like to write or evn type something nowadays. In the past, I used to write diaries, but now the routine was terminated. I think I considered as a sad story. Actually this habit is a good thing to work out daily, by the way, I eventually quit. Music is another thing that I won't leave it behind me, I think. Music influences me a lot, in almost every way. I heard no dance no life, for me, it will be ' No Music, No Life'. Life would be just as dull as the dark sky that rain ensued, without the melody that played in the soft air, life is more boring as it seems to be. I think I got influenced in music by my parents, especially my mum. Lately, I had been wondering to buy a Digital SLR camera. What's on it that keep my mind stick to it is that, the quote of ''capture the moment''. I had been raising up a few new past times. My friend, Alvin suggested me to read some interesting novels online, gave a link for me to view hk dramas online. He told me some knowledge abour DSLR too. I don't know whether I had startedto like him. I'm so uncertain of what I'm thinking. Couldn't get used to losing the old guy and also struggled beneath to let a new guy to inhabitate your heart. I don't know. I think I need some time to forget the old guy, but those memories we had together were still fresh in my mind that I can't stop viewing them, contemplating them in mind. Those videos kept me smiling too, they're just sweet old memories, but when I think back. Does it worth, is it worthwhile to wait for a guy to turn his back from the girl in his heart to come back to me? Is it possible he shall have the same feelings upon me too? I shrugged. All these are like making a judgement of the tomorow, everything had not been assured but blindly putting a conclusion for it. I just should say, it's the carzy little thing called love that kept our heads swirling..turn round and round, even when you feel dizzy, you're still addicted to keep spinning, until you feel like fainting,and you went black off just like that. Love makes someone blind, really, I experienced that before.

Good Day

2010-11-21T07:33:00.000-08:00

Today is just a fine good day. I'm so relaxed by the morning walk. What that keep me practicing this daily routine is because I really like the feeling of sweating. Perspiration is always giving me the feeling of relieving, rejuvenating, just fine good feeling that keep me fell in love with plain little thing called morning walk. Everybody is surely having their very own hard times in life, no doubt, we have to face the obstacles no matter how hard, because life goes on. Sometimes when you undergo the smoky haze, and you are finding a way out, usually there's a breakthrough within yourself, mind and soul. When you conquer the haze and manage to get out of it, you are the ultimate winner. I'm relly striving hard to be the winner, everyone do their very best to stand ot of the crowd, hit the headlines, be the best of all. I'm doing my part, others do their part too. Thos great sunday, I spent plenty of time enjoying myself. Morning walk is on my daily basis, then I onlined again, facing the same laptop screen( I bought my laptop by 13th November, Happy One Week's Old! XD). Then, I went for a walk at Cheras Leisure Mall, went to Popular Bookstore, wandering around between the corners of book shelves, flipping those magazines that could attract my eye sight and have a flip on it... I like this way of life, honestly. My mum's still choosing the best ID magazine, while KY's on his way of finding erasers and rulers... LOL... Back home, I did the online thingy once again. Then, I went for a banquet of Kwang Shao Association's 123 Aniversary celebration. I enjoyed the sumptuous meal there, indulged with the singing ambience that I found myself can't control, joining the singing part too. XDD. Okay, that's all for today, a good Sunday~ XD

Art

2010-11-19T22:55:00.000-08:00

I found myself so immersed by looking at the drawings that were in the search engine of google. Art is something that can amaze me, other than cute guys..LOL.. By the way, guys can cheat my love, Art won't. Art will stay loyal to me if you have the same feeling on it. Guys? They won't be staying too long when they saw pretty girls passed by...

Sunway Lagoon Escapade~

2010-11-17T19:43:00.000-08:00

I had waited for this day so long, even my little brother started to nag about the trip. When? When? When? Lol.. What that raw attraction over there? It's just about having fun, getting ourselves laughing and screaming over splashed water. We anticipated for it. Hope it's an enjoyable trip then.XD

Haze's Spreading Off

2010-11-17T17:58:00.000-08:00

These few days, so unhappy about a guy. I wandered around Kuala Lumpur, namely to explore KL. But the main thing is to steer of the sadness beneath my heart, that hard feelings that make me wonder the same guy the whole day, not just a day, the period is infinite. I wanted to find a way through, an exit for all these, I had got enough of all these. I found myself exhausted of staying to a bad guy for so long, raising a white flag, I'm tired. By the way, I'm happy that haze's getting off from my zone, blew by the wind, and gone with the wind... LOL... I know deep within myself, the best cure of all is just let the time past. But for me, I won't let time passed without doing anything, such a waste of time. Let me be surrounded by works, tasks, my time will be filled with jobs, and I won't face sadness, no time for sadness. Go sadness and don't ever come back again. I'm going to let my holiday filled with midst of sorrowness, it's my holiday, it should be a fun time ever, especially next week is my birthday, my birthday's just around the corner. No one should ever steal my happiness and let sadness conquer me over. Boredom? I found a new cure for it. It's strolling in shopping malls, let new stuffs, newbies, latest trends caught my attention, distract me from thinking of that guy. Game over. Next guy please. XD

Holiday's Here!

2010-11-13T17:23:00.000-08:00

I'm really happy and miss the days that I'm with the big gang, not big bang...XDD. Before getting my holiday, my semester break, I was wondering to have one. But when I got it, I felt missing my friends in campus. This sem break will be the long break ever as next semester will just have a gap of one week to the third semester(last semester). The days with big gang, we experienced jungle trekking by night, my unforgettable moments of slippery paths in the jungle, mud all over shirt. All this are experiencing with my best buddy, Dang... Haha. We enjoyed our trip there, got closer with heng dai a gang of guys ( Kher Choon, Zi Quan, Say Kheng, Chin Yi...and sometimes Edward) haha... We shared lots of laughter there and even in the campus... I had a very''gile'' buddy that helped me out of journal, we are actually '' teman seperjuangan'' through weekends, rushing over never-ending assignments... We went to Sunway Pyramid for that site visit..It's lots of fun too... XD... I will miss you guys alot... Enjoy ur holidays!!!! XDD

Awaiting Break

2010-10-25T22:47:00.000-07:00

So far, our design class had made us quite miserable. We hardly find ample time for a good night sleep. I can still remember the days of waking up by the morning, classes, back home, assignments, sleep. This routine had been practiced five days a week, and now I'm still repeating it, I mean we are. Yesterday, we went to Sunway Pyramid, a site visit ( to specify). We really did our topic well that we walked through basements, loading bay of the shopping mall. I could barely imagine that we had this kind of experience, indeed, it was a new experience for a teen like me, wearing casual suits, walking through and exploring our site this way. :D. Our topic was Foundation, that was why we undergone stinky places, just to have a shot of the foundation area. I bet it was a good lesson for all of us, my team mates. We took photos of the load-bearing wall, the pad foundations, the columns, the strip foundations, the beams, slabs and etc. We went to some secluded areas, next to the trashy place, walked in there, snapped photos. It was funny that we took pictures together somewhere so unpleasant, and we could still raise our lips for a smile..CHEESE.. XD. After that, we went for our walkabout around Jusco, Asian Avenue, shops, boutiques to start our shopping spree. I went for a movie with heng dais, Life As We Know It, while Dang insisted that she's okay to watch Buried by herself.( Sorry Dang for not accompanying you, :( !). Before the movie, went for lunch by A&W, hotdog bun plus french fries, no drinks..:D. Then for movie, I still could manage to buy caramel popcorn for the show...XDD.. After the movie, I were still in the guys' group, they entered shops for mens' wear and I had no objections for it, they're the majority.. Then, at last, we went to eat Sushi Zanmai.. I missed sushi there.. last time I ate sushi by Sushi Zanmai@ The Gardens was 6 June 2010. I remembered the day so well because I had given my whole family a sushi treat there, it costed me around RM 23O.OO by that time. :D. Then it was yesterday that I could try my sushi again that I craved for so long time... XD. Next, I met up with Dang again @ Popular, we walked around, then to Mark & Spencer, bought nothing. Finally, we grouped ourselves by the mall's main entrance to wait for our bus to go back to campus. I really enjoyed the time when we gaily sang songs, all sorts of songs from mandrin songs, cantonese songs, children songs, festive seasons' songs. I remembered the part when we sand CNY's song... omg, the sound was so loud, and we ignored that and kept on singing crazily, like we were out of our minds. Haha.... XDD. I think I would miss that part a lot, and stay in my mind like forever... XDD. Thanks everyone who are doing your part. XD... For now, I wish that I can have our break, our semester break by 15 November. Working by holidays? I'm still figuring out... XS

Case Studies & Lectures

2010-08-25T22:36:00.000-07:00

Case Study 1 : KL Tower
- highest concrete building - 421 metre in height
- 3 phases
- 1st phase : widening Jalan Puncak in Oct'91
- 2nd phase : construction of foundation & basement of the tower
- escavate ( pour in the soil )
- 3rd phase : 'superstructure' by May 1992
* the construction of the building need to consider the wind pressure, etc.

Concrete Finishes
Finishes : touch up for final work ( pedestrian walkway, flooring, wall )

*Engraving
> using special tools & equipments to cut patterns and designs
> permanent
> can be enhanced by staining

*Stamped Concrete
> pattern resembles bricks, slate, flagstone, stone, tiles & wood
>> Overlay revamps, pool decks

*Polished Concrete
> new product, no-wax flooring material
> grind the concrete floor surfaces into a high-gloss finishes
>> Driveway, house flooring

Case Study 2 : Petronas Twin Towers ( SkyBridge )
-established in 28 August 1999
-Cesar Pelli & Associates
-1483 feet ( 452 metres )
-glass & steel construction
-geometric principles - Islamic architecture
> to symbolise grace, strength, unity, harmony, stability
and rationality
-depth ( foundation ) > 21 metres
-skybridge ( double-storey) > linking, facilitating movement between two towers
* in case of fire
-location : levels 41 & 42
-height : 170 metres above street level
-weight : about 750 tonnes
-stainless steel cladding : 65,000 square metres
-steel used : 36910 tonnes of beams, trusses and reinforcement
-two hinge arch supporting the bridge
* Cladding : one type of finishes, applying on the building's skin
-railings
-2 mian joints : beam to column
: beam to ceiling
`> support the building
-beam to ceiling : connection : bolting ( like screwing )
-both block ends are welded to the towers, sunshade joint
-the two-hinge arch supporting the bridge has rotational pins ( spherical bearings ) at the
`> allow bridge legs to flex by wind movement
~end of each leg

>Foundation of KLCC
-friction piles
-concrete usage :- 13200 cubic metres of concrete ( enough to build 130 double-storey link houses )
-original plan - soil is watery, with soft soil, limestone soil.
-switch to the other plan - somewehere far from the soft soil.
*Tower 1 & 2 are built by different contractors.
*Tower 1 started to build first.
Both contractors compete among themselves to build the mega structures.
*Tower 1 leads the game, but suddenly it builds slightly slanted ( not vertical )
However, problem solved.
*Sky bridge - fixing : had encountered 3 thunderstorm when the fixing part was going on.

Built Environment

2010-08-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

Lecture 1
Built Environment : man-made surroundings that provide the setting for human activity from largest scale civic surroundings to the smallest personal place.

Components:-
-Architect
-Town Planner
-Quantity Surveyor
-Landscape Architect
-Interior Architect
-Land Surveyor
-M&E Engineer
-C&S Engineer

Design & Construction Team
Client
l---------- Project Manager
Architect
l
l------------l------------l----------l---------l--------------l
Quantity Landscape Town Interior Land C&S Engineer
Surveyor Architect Planner Architect Surveyor M&E Engineer
l------------l-----------l-----------l----------l-------------l
_____________l
l Main Contractor
Nominated l
Sub-Contractor l-------------------l
Sub Supplier
Contractor

Conceptual Diagram : Bubble Diagram

Design Stages
1. Design Brief
Conceptual ideas ( basic sketches )
Discussion between Architect & Client

2. Preliminary Design
Approval from client
Presentation session by design, Architect ( Landscape Architect & Interior Designers ) to client.

3. Finalized Design
Estimate cost by Quantity Surveyor
Changes on design may occur
Working drawings prepared by consultants ( details, technical )

4.Construction Commencement
Construction drawings prepared by respective consultants. ( Architect, ME Engineers, C&S Engineers )

Architecture ( Greek )
- the art and science of designing buildings and structures.
-having qualities of :-
- beauty
- geometry
- emotional and spiritual power
- intellectual content and complexity
- soundness of construction
- convenient planning
- etc ( essetra )

Art : expression of creativity or imagination, or both.

Science : -knowledge / system, covering general truths or the operation of general laws ( obtained and tested through scientific method )
- relies heavily upon forms of LOGIC.

* Vitruvius ( Roman Empire )
Architecture- multi-disciplinary field ( fold mathematics, science, art, technology, social science, politics, history, philosophy, and so on )

* Swiss Re Tower by Sir Norman Foster
* Lyon Airport Railway Station by Santiago Calatrava

What Influences Architecture ?
- Economic
- Socio Culture
- Politics
- Artistic
- Technology

Historical Timeline
~Ancient ( Pyramid )
-Gods, Demons, Spirits

~Classical ( Colleseum- Roman Empire )
-Public buildings / Gathering Area

~ Electicism ( Cathedral, Church )
- Spiritual & Religious Value, Sculptural Value )
- detailing on the ornaments.

~ Form follows functions, international style
~ Arts movement, art nouveau...etc
~ High tech

Main Purpose of Architecture
- to fulfill human needs, sensory, delight
- to capture the greatest achievement of man at a particular time ( evidence for future generation )

Role of Architect
- responsible to client
- as a leader in a particular project
- responsible to the society

Shape

2010-08-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

Definition: the characteristic outline or surface configuration of a particular form.
* By having shapes, we can identify and categorizes forms.
* Non geometrical shapes : organic shape

Lines are used to define shapes.

-A line connects two points or two dots.
-A series of dots placed together forms a line.
-A line can be straight or curvy.
-A shape- made by ending a line.
-A silhouette- outline of a shape.
Shape is conceived by xontour or silhouette ; not by DETAIL.

Shape refers to the configuration of shapes and edges of a 2 or 3 dimensional object.

*Mechanical shapes- made with straight lines, circles angd/ or part of circles - the shape that can make with ruler or compass, technical tools.

*Man-made shape~ geometrical shapes

Geometrical shapes: straight with straight sides/ regularlly shaped curves
Organic shapes: shapes that are not regular or free-form.

Primary shapes : Circle, Triangle, Rectangle.

! John Gero and Han Jun
" Drawn shapes play a critical role not only in representing a design concept but also in allowing the designer to reinterpret them to develop new ideas."

-The figure and ground relationship is one of the most important principles in design( must be considered by designer).
-The figure- what you notice ; ground is everything else.
-Shape is a vital design element used as a visual tool.
-The area- composition takes place in is called-- format( defined by its shape and size).
-Shape preferences based on cultural, personal memory and conventional.
-Architects convey motion through Architecture.
*Dancing House, moving shape.
* Front of the building, term : facade ( ''fesat'')

PLANE
Horizontal planes (4)
1. Overhead plane
* Farnsworth House ( Meis Van der Rohe)
* Glass House, Connecticut

2. Base plane

3. Depressed plane
* Rockafeller Center, New York

4. Elevated plane
* Acropolis, Rome
*Izumo Shrine
* Pavilion of Supreme Harmony, Beijing

Vertical planes
1. L-shaped plane

2. Parallel plane

3.U-shaped plane

4.Four planes : Closure

5. Single vertical plane
* S. Agostino, Rome

The Guy that Should be Let Go

2010-08-05T01:39:00.000-07:00

Today, by some chances, I'd managed to have a view of my past posts in my blog. I saw that I'm writing about my trip to Cameron Highland. A guy crossed in my mind, it's him, Nigel Chin. I think most of my friends would think Natalie, here you go, you're falling so easily for a guy again, so irresistable to the temptation? Lol. This is not the big deal. Some might say I'm ''flower-hearted'', but if you really know me well, you should know that I'm those people who don't give up so easily on relationship and I can be very loyal. There's the story goes. I'd got to know this guy in ICQ ( some might say it's dangerous again...XD . Somehow, nothing about this ham me yet.. Thank God ). We started chatting by July 2009..last year( I'm not sure about the months, it's around July/ August). Through the chatting, everything seems fine for me, just chatting, sharing the experiences of our lives, no big deal. By the starting, we are netfriends, then he became my brother and he dated me out, then the relationships started to go tangle like a telephone wire wiring all around you. It's in between friendship and love. Somehow, we still strive on the border line, friends to almost couple, couple to friends and back and forth like that. Two word to describe all this--- It's Complicated. Frankly speaking, most of the girls will not like this feeling like hanging in the atmosphere, the feeling of unstable and unsure, this feeling comes to me. Rising my inner bravery, I asked him a few times about this and tell him what I feel through sms. However, there's no exact answers from him. The story just goes on like that and I'd made up my mind to end all this up. Here, he told me he has a girlfriend. No big deal, I told him I'm leaving this relationship and for them to be together.. Just go ahead. Both of us struggle for the friendship. Now, everything ended just like that, no regrets, no harm, nothing. Life goes on. I have my lessons to attend, I have my assignments to do, I have my newly-met friends to chat with, I have my spacious library(resource centre) to hang around, the varieties in my life is colouring my life beautifully. No one should ever refrain me from my tiring yet enjoyable life of study. Bye to the guy that should be let go! Happy ending with your lovely girlfriend. X)

New

2010-08-04T00:44:00.000-07:00

I'd got used to the word of new these couple of weeks. New learning spaces, new friends, new course I'm going on, new library, new knowledge and a new path of my life journey. I can say that almost everyday I'm meeting new faces around me, I have to meet my new lecturers everyday, everything is like ever-changing, spinning around like the Earth evolving around the Sun, and also as regular as the clockwise. There's only some of the constant thing on me that stays the same, I bet my gang or my close friends know what it is. I'm still eating bread on a daily-basis. Lol. One thing about the food is I like biscuits and bread, most of the confectionery stuff that will raise my appetite. Sweet food. XD. Back on the new life I'm having lately, I found that myself are getting closer to architecture as day passes by( If I'm going to measure the distance, or even the speed... Speed = Distance/ Time. Then I shall count it 100 metre per day). I really couldn't explain the invisible bond between architecture and me. Somehow, I feel like I'm not totally dislike about this subject, that's good. Maybe as I'm digging in deeper to the ground of the architecture, it will not be as boring as it should be. It's really like visualising what's in the mind to be built in the actual building.More or less, it will be similar to interior design as well. Architecture will be learning about the basic elements of a building, of a house for example. Soon, I'll be learning about the piping system, the ventilation system, electrical supply, and so on. By getting in touch with a little knowledge about architecture, we will actually know how houses are built, the materials, the important criterias the facilities. We are not anticipated to become well-known or top architects around the world, but at least we are well-informed by the knowledge of Architecture. I think I'll be meeting my old friends again-- Physics as I saw them in the Visual Dictionary of Architecture( I'll be getting them by tomorrow's lesson....
XD). I bought 3 books in a package, that costs me RM 380.00. I think the package is far more cheaper then the outside bookstores, I'd made the best decision, a Visual Dictionary of Architecture, the textbook for Architecture also,and a Drawing and Design book). As I mentioned earlier, everything will be new as my new journey leads me ahead. And also my newly-met friends and classmates in the campus. Thanks for the help, guys!

Study Journey~

2010-08-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

I'd started my first lesson by yesterday. I shall call it a drawing class, I knew that this week is probably just the introduction of our course. The time where lecturers tell us the rules and regulations to be obeyed, lecturers even share the modules and scopes that they're going to teach. For me, this study journey will be different from the past education systems. No customized uniform to wear, no specific classroom like primary and secondary schools( teachers are not attending to our class, we are the one who is responsible to seek them for lessons, in this case, we are really grown ups, capable to be independent). What's that bothers me is that we don't have tuition classes to depend on... that's bad). That's why our lecturers are our ''dependable'' tuition teachers, and our new tuition centre is our resource centre(both library and the compute lab). The new fact: We Are On Our Own!!! About the reason why I'd decided to choose Foundation in Architecture & Built Environment, it's because I like interior designs much. After this one-year programme, I'll be pursuing a 3-year degree course of Interior Architecture. Why not fashion design, some might say. I had been informed of the competitive atmosphere in the fashion industry. I'm not ready for the peer pressure ahead in this field. We must really bend over backwards to achieve the fame in the circle of designers. There's so must to fight: fame, your label, even for the fabrics... By the way, I'd made up my mind for this journey,just enjoy because there'll be no turning back. Gambate, Natalie!

Working Days~

2010-06-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time that I had not posted a new blog this few months, even I left my diary unwritten for a few weeks.(Sorry, Diary! :( ) I think I had a lot of things to share with, if I'm really going to write everything out about my working days. The unforgettable events:- My first day, Joey gave me a grey fleece jacket to be steamed. I thought that it was my first task, but then I only found out that it was my uniform. Somehow Joey had left, no longer working at Juicy Couture @ Pavilion, I heard that she's going o Singapore with her bf. In these days, I had got to know a few colleagues that had been good and friendly to me. Syamil, Mel, Grace, Hafiz, Louise, Nicole, Rebecca, Ivy, our newly part timer-- Hafizah, and also our ''mother'' Joanne. By the way, Hafiz and Grace had left too, I missed them. Hafiz is always the one who tricks everyone with his annoying jacket, and always did something disgusting. I remembered one day, Syamil's bracelet was quite unfit, then we decided to open the string, remove a few beads. Then, here came the disgusting part-- Hafiz put 2 round beads each on his nostrils... OMG..that's not the end yet, he exhaled forcefully, then the beads dropped from his nostrils... Three of us broke into laughter and felt totally annoyed. Hafiz, the 'red' lover and the first look of him surely will make most of the people think of the red Elmo. LOL. Next is about Grace, Sya always emphasised her nose was quite big and joked about it, even gave her the nickname-- Limkokwing's grand daughter. Haha. She is a friendly colleague indeed, we shared thoughts about her life and I shared mine with her. In these working days, more than 2 months, I got to know about the basics(rudiments) of fabric-- how to differentiate between terry cloth,velour cloth and fleece cloth. I think I had grown up this period of hardwork. At the beginning of this job, the first thing that came across my mind would have just be the factor-- $$$. However, when I had worked for quite sometime, I realised that the thing that keep you going on is not $$$ anymore, it's the friendship you had with your colleagues. Counting the days, it's about 1 month to go towards my last day... I will miss every part of my working days, I surely will miss my colleagues... @@

Money~

2010-03-04T05:18:00.000-08:00

I think this will be my first time of so desperately want to earn money by my own. The main factor is that I had spent almost all of my CNY's angpaus for 3 bottles of facial products. When my friends got to know about this, they had much opinions about me. I really can't deny that I'm those girls who like aesthetics so much, until I don't care much about money, my personal finance. Honestly, there's not much money left by my side. I think money will not be enough when our desires are accumulating, maybe stop thinking of what we fancy of, steer away those thoughts of lavish lifestyles. Then, a quote came across my mind by this few seconds--- No money, No talk. In this material world which full of temptations, we can't really control our desires to buy things. Women chase after jewelleries, branded bags, clothes ; Guys chase after girls(XD), highly-paid jobs, cars, house, good looks for themselves. Here, I thought of another common & famous idea---5Cs' ( Career, Condo, Car, Credit Card, Cxx)..haha..I forgot the last one. LOL. All in all, money is essential. XD

A Great Mistake

2010-02-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

Now I found out that it's my big mistake that I confessed to him. I should not do this to scare him away. Now, the ending that I must accept that is I lost a friend. Nothing that can invert the whole scene. Sad......X(

Adding credit to Natalie Tham

2010-02-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

Today, I just went to Popular Bookstore to buy foreign language books. I had one language that I would like to learn in my mind---- Italian. Why Italian? The reason is that Milan, the city which fashion are originated in Italy. Thus, if I had managed this extra language, it will automatically add marks to our own, communicate with others easily. :). By the way, learning foreign languages at a younger age is a credit actually. There's no such thing that learning extra something is just for fashion industry, it is truly widely open for every industries, not beyond age, occupation etc. This is what we usually said Life-Long Learning.

Cameron Highland Trip

2010-02-02T04:29:00.000-08:00

The whole trip went smoothly with my family and myself. I enjoyed the vacation very much. Before I went there, I missed strawberry ice-stick ( ice cream). The sweet taste of it making it really irresistable for anyone..I bet. XD. I think I'm not the one who got so much goods bought back from CH. My mum and aunt did. LOL. All in all, I bought strawberry-based products, such as strawberry jam, dried & preserved strawberries, fresh strawberries and strawberry ice-sticks. I also tried chocolated strawberries..yum yum. Others like my mum bought a lot of veges and also some delicate, beautiful flowers. This trip gave me a lot of experiences, either in thoughts or feelings. I gained much. I felt that other than love, I realised that the warmth of family of being together made me feel that actually I'm not alone, there's still my family that support me at my back. I felt the warmth of family when we ate steamboat in a chilling cold atmosphere. The warmth made me feel great, the feel of happiness. The second thing is that the trip to Cameron Highland can teach everyone of us to do a small deed to save the Earth. I saw all the greeneries there, cute flower buds. They remind me of the message of '' Save The Planet, Go Green !''. So, why we still hesitate to do a minor job to practice Recyling..

lovin' it

2010-01-12T01:59:00.000-08:00

Lately, I put away those sad song of Jay's, switching my attention to Colbie Caillat. She had a wide range of smoothing, relaxing songs, by just plucking the strings of guitar. This reminds me of my original enthusiastism on learning guitar. The calm tunes out of the instrument set a smoothing, warm, happy ambience, leaving every people who heard her songs joyous and relaxin'. I like her songs such as '' Falling For You'' and '' Bubbly''. Both songs set a merry beginning, by viewing the MV in youtube, I think that i could feel the way she feels. Maybe I should keep my fire of passion, burning in my heart, that i can keep on learning my guitar. If possible, I would like to compose a few heart-warming, calming tunes, songs to be shared by everyone. :). By the way, one thing I could be very sure of, that is my passion upon drawing. If anyone asks me when did i started to draw, I could not be sure, but most probably is Standard Two, 8-year-old. Then, by calculating with my age, I'd been drawing for almost nine to ten years. It is a good achievement for me, about keeping my passion on drawing. I think I would like to thank a lot of teachers that aided me along my life. I could still remember that there's a Art teacher in primary school, who taught me since I'm in Standard Two. Why don't I say that I like drawing since I'm in Standard One? The fact is that I remembered that I drew very ugly people(like small girl) on a paper of half blank and half 5 coloured lines of an exercise book. Haha. If that drawing is being compared to what I draw now, I think it is worth a big laugh. However, as for me, I took it as a growth, a progress of changing, growing, improving, exceeding my current sketches toward better masterpieces. About my Art teacher, I sincerely forgot what's her name( Sorry, Teacher!). One thing that lasted, sticked on my mind long lasting. That is a great compliment from her. She complimented me for a drawing of '' Pasar Malam''. I have gathered a few good ideas from those nice drawings that sticked on whiteboard. I did a few modifications and a bit my own ideas, then I completed my artwork. By next week, she saw it, she gave me marks and she told the whole class that I had did a great job, my artwork has Standard Six's standard, by that time I was just Standard Five, I was feeling very delighted that I got that praises from my teacher. Not just praises, it is about the recognition, the trust and faith on me. I feel so good until now, I'll have my lips smile when I thought about the scene. :). There's a lot more teachers that guided me to a better me. My class teacher when I'm 7 to 9, Mrs. Zheng. She's the one that taught me, the whole class very strictly to write neat and beautiful mandrin words. Thanks Teacher! Then there's still another teacher who taught me chinese caligraphy. There's so much teacher that I wanted to say Thank You. And there's my best friend in primary school, Chang Yee Shan. We had not in contact for several years, I feel that I regreted. Both of us must have change much, but I hope that her passion on drawing will not fade, just like me. I think I will contact her very soon, not losing this friend. :)

nd~ a spring breeze of autumn leaves

2009-12-27T05:53:00.000-08:00

KPP talk

2009-12-27T04:51:00.000-08:00

Today i went for KPP class at IMKEDA at Kajang. Before that, I waited for quite a long time until 8 something, only Uncle Chin came to my house. When I got into the car, I saw there was two other guys in it and uncle. One chinese guy and another is an Indian guy. We went to the destination around 8.44am. And Uncle Chin said he's going to send another girl in, just around Kajang area. Then we also had to fill in the forms, viewed around the whole place, then we lined up to apply SPP card, had our fingerprints. Up to this stage, Uncle Chin said we can proceed to the class. The class started approximately 10.45am. The first speaker was Mr. Mohd Al Zhahir, then the second speaker was Mr. Hamid. Both of them were experienced examiner and tutor, but I think they need to buck up in giving talks. XP. They tried to give a lot of examples when explaining some topics of the textbook. LOL. The word ' textbook ' sounded like school SPBT books. Haha. So, today I also got to know a guy, that chinese guy, Hui Li Xiong. Haha. Still know people's name. I knew his D.O.B too...accidentally. 28 Nov. He's a sagi...that's bad..haha. He studied in 'du zhong', so he said he don't know a lot about BM. Hmm. He'd got a brother and a younger sister. Haha. Maybe he's sagi, sagi n sagi has ' mo qi ' that he told a lot of things about himself to me. But I truely know that the possibility with him is low...and possibly zero. So, what I need to do now is just concentrate on my driving notes..the theories that I need to bury my head on them. Gambate in Everything you are heading to, Natalie ! Jia You !

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T00:48:00.000-08:00

I'm lovin' Christmas. It's a heart-warming occasion that everyone should enjoy themselves int his pleasant event. Why should we carry a sad face all day long, why not tear off the sad faces, have a bright smile on our faces to enjoy Christmas Day? I'm feelin' merry, happy and jolly. This is the Christmas that I'm not missing any guys, not thinking of them like every second, I'm enjoying myself, together with my family on the Christmas trip to Colmar Tropicale, Bukit Tinggi in Pahang. I still remembered a friend of mine said there's a place of boredom. I went there about 4 to 5 times. I can tell where to visit, what's the attraction of the places..LOL. Then I'm quite qualified to be a tour guide there..LOL. I'm still single by this Christmas, no one to hold hands, to one to get hugs from, no Christmas presents, but WHO CARES? lol..

Sad Atmosphere Surrounds Me

2009-12-21T23:47:00.000-08:00

Lately, I like one of Jay's old songs--Ge Qian. I don't really know what it means, but maybe I like it's rhythm a lot. The whole song kept playing in my mind, repeat and repeat. The song started with a sad mood, I'm brought into that sad atmosphere too. Maybe it's quite normal for me, this period of forgeting someone you like very much before. Now, everything ended like a 2-hour sad movie. After we had a good time of sobbing, out of the cinema, we are back into our life, the reality. I told myself to cry out, but I couldn't. There's not much of things between us to worth a sob or a cry. What that is left in my mind are just the sweet old memories, that I missed them so much. We used to share a lot of stuff when we onlined at the same time. Now, it's really impossible. I could feel the distance, the strongly-built fortress in his heart, but sadly..I'm just a weak, lame soldier, that tried so hard to cross over that obstacle, but I tried in vain. Eventhough I have got bombs, there's no use at all. That cold feelings from his message, I could feel that he had let go of me. It's that I'm still thick in the head, still hoping that we can be together. We can be friends, only. Because of the distance physically and the distance between us are going far as time went by. We are friends, Paul Dhillon Dovorsky.

A few pieces of memories

2009-12-18T00:43:00.000-08:00

I really wish to upload his pics here..waiting for his reply by mail. There just left some broken pieces of memories. I like to view the clouds after I contemplated on his photo. He said he took it just for me, it's sweet. The photo is that he's riding a bike and the background is the puffy sunset clouds. I like the whole scenery, like his smile too. He'd reached a record that no one can beat him until now. By the day we met, right from ICQ, we had chatted for 3 hours non-stop. I thought we'll just paused by the question about ''How are you?'' and '' I'm fine.'' It's far more than that. Since the day, we'd much chats, funny conversations. We'd also come across to a stage of coincidence of what we said. Both of us laughed on it. There's much more sweet memories with him, nut they're just staying as memories.

Driving ?

2009-12-18T00:22:00.000-08:00

I'm going to learn driving very soon. Actually I'm phobia about driving, like controlling a moving machine on the busy road. Losing confidence about stepping the paddles, gripping the steering and the controllers...P1, P2, D? Argh....I scared that I'm a nervous driver on the road. By the way, we have to learn when we are growing. Be positive.

Fragile...

2009-12-17T23:52:00.000-08:00

Before and after exams, I'm still thinking about the same matter : whether to let the guy go and forget him. I'd tried my best to think about this matter, finally I've got an answer. We're just friends, but more than friends, I really can feel that he has the same feel upon me. Maybe I think too much, he just seek me as a friend, not more than that. I asked my friend how to define like and love. Like means that you just adore him, a feel upon him. Love is a deep attraction upon that person, and is willing to sacrifice even he's in danger, i'll not think of anything, rush over him to save his life. I paused. I'm not ready to sacrifice anything for him, I just like him. So, it's better for me to forget him, his smiles, his photos, our chats, his black jacket, his favourite football team, his conversations about we going to Spain together, his mandrin writing as an 'ang mo', his family background, and so much more of our memories. I really want to let him know that every conversations we made, I'd tried my very best to remember all of them, I really did. But up to this stage, what I need to do is to let him go, let him out of my mind, my life. I'd deleted his hp no. out of my phone, and he's not replying my message also, that's the end of our story. I do not expect that's the end, but what can I do ? Humans are like players in a match, the one who is really monitoring is the God. I'm sad about this relationship with him, not more than 100 days, so fragile. I've broke this all. :(

Down

2009-10-24T00:19:00.000-07:00

Lately, I felt a sense of sorrow. I think I know the reasons for it. There's just a reason. About Paul. I thought that we can still be attached despite of distance matter. It's really suffering when you can reach the highest point to happy-- ecstacy. Then, a few seconds later, you fell off to the ground. I hit the ground before, but I'm still not awake. I hate myself being like this. I'd decided to quit everything linked to bf matters. It'll come to me some day, I believe.

Studies Ahead

2009-10-12T05:19:00.000-07:00

Lately, I had been very addicted to ICQ. I told myself to quit, but still I surrender to that tempting chatting website. I really hope that I spend my time wisely. Not to mess around with precious hours again. Studies..in my mind is the path to get closer to my dream, a golden ticket for higher educations. I do not look forward to be a doctor, nurse, or lawyer or other professionals. Fashion designer is my ultimate career. I have a great passion for art, designing, it will be a total waste if I quit by now. Although science stream has nothing to link with my future career, at least I do not waste my time by learning subjects that I do not like at all. I do like Biology and Chemistry when I was in Form 4 until now. So, I joined the stream and strived hard for my exams. I hope that I could win this SPM battle by my own effort, no matter what, because I had chosed this path. Myself. By using the remaining days, gambate and go for the very best result for SPM !

Mr. P

2009-10-12T04:54:00.000-07:00

I met a guy for one month. We knew each other for a month and a day until today, 12 October 2009. That's means we knew each other by 11 September 2009. I really do not expect I can find my Mr. Right so fast. Although it's the right guy, he's staying in Singapore. Our problem is actually the distance, 5km as he said yesterday( we chatted yesterday). :) I felt really lucky to find a guy that likes me and at the same time, he likes me too. It's really hard. But both of us could manage to know each other. Is this what we call destiny? Hope that he's my destiny too. :P. We chat a lot of stuff by yesterday, not just the flirty chats. I feel that he's not the guy who play a fool with me, I really do hope that he's not. I really hope to know more about him, his family background, his blood type, if possible...everything about him. LOL. I know he's supporting Liverpool(red team), like sushi(as i do) and Christmas(as i do). We do share a lot of similarities (except we are not the same gender). He said this will never be the same. haha. Once again, I really do hope he's not a liar about every single thing he told me. At last, his name is Paul Dhillon.

宠

2009-09-26T04:11:00.000-07:00

最近，也许是假期的关系，我花了蛮多钱的，都是花在自己身上，宠一宠自己。感觉很好啊!我以前会想把钱花在喜欢的人身上。可是，现在领悟了许多人生道理，我们是应该爱自己的，在适当的时候宠爱自己是一大乐事。买了mask，T-恤，手袋。差不多每一样东西都是宠爱自己的。我觉得这样是对自己好的。其实，我们为什么要把钱看得太重？花了钱，再赚回来。。。每一位，加油吧！

终于。。。

2009-09-26T03:38:00.000-07:00

我很开心。我终于可以把心中的包袱，狠狠地将他投入深海当中。我还记得我身边的朋友，一个个劝我别傻了。那个不喜欢你的他，再多的付出也是白费心机的。忘了他吧！差不多我认识的人都说同一句话。可是我就是太傻了，我还以为只要我一直等下去就会有结果。怎么知道，原来是我太固执了，为他这样的执着是愚蠢的行为。我已经决定了--他以成为过去了。他只不过是区区的一棵树。我又为何为了一棵树而放弃了整片森林呢？

Viva dress

2009-08-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

I like the feel of putting colours in viva dress. It's fun colours that I can say. Pink, orange, yellow and a tinge of white among the colours. Bright colours from the top to the bottom. Highly potential to cherish someone's day when she put it on, and send their dark clouds or gloomy feelings away.Viva dress appears in a messy way, because I'm not intended to draw something like a dress or what, I'm sketching some wavy curly hairs of a girl. Boosh...I'd designed this. Hopefully I'll be fashionable as I really try very hard to make a sense of fashion in my designs. I always do, honestly. When you really view this dress for a longer monent, you might find that the colours are quite retro. Retro is the time that bright colours send to the big screen. Bright colours lined up to be shown under the sun, no more hiding, the world is all waiting to have a glance of them all. Just then, bright colours will not be receiving blames that accusing them for their garishness, their bright personalities...

Triangule aug09

2009-08-22T00:20:00.000-07:00

Triangule
A simple concept that I found it just from the shape of triangle. You can say that it looks like contour of hills. I really expect the whole gown to be green as I'm deeply in love with green. The sketch is quite familiar to other gowns designed by well-known international fashion designers.
However, I still keep to myself that what pass over my mind, I just have to sketch it down. I won't forgive myself if I lost any of them because I'm lazy to sketch the idea down. Triangule shows a classy feel for girls who are like me---like the idea of being glamourous( I mean the outfit...XD).
It's simply the right apparel that one should snatch it out from a boutique and show off in ballroom...LOL

Zoe

2009-08-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

Zoe
My new ND model. Newly hired. She has fair complexion as other Asian girls. Big round eyes--the major attraction of her features.
Roseate glossy lips. A tinge of pinkish foundation made her face aglow perfectly.
Hazel wavy hair sent a heartthrob in every single guy. Overall, she is in for ND models due to her fresh look and good personality.

~Antibodied~

2009-08-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

During these 3 weeks, i learnt a lot. from sickness. Although I'm antibodied and also injected with sort of vaccine, I'm still clear that who care about me. My parents, my kaima, my siblings, my friends. All of them make me nearly cried, but i really cried once. I really can't hide my feelings. I believe when you are in that desperate situation, that memorable hard moments, you would find this crying method the best way to express everything deep beneath your heart. Maybe I'm that sentimental, but I think i have both sides, when i'm out there, i can be very strong tough of person, but back home, i can't hide myself under blanket, crying. I really admit that i have double personalities. People saw me as a funny, enjoyable, easy-going person by the outside, but by the same time, i have down moments, just my close friends know that i think, or even they don't even know. After these period of sufferrings, I learnt how to be grateful to God, everything that is go smoothly, nice happenings. My aunt kept on telling me that if i do not recover from this terrible sore throat, it may worsen and fatal. I suddenly realise that life doesn't control by ourselves, our hands. It is everything depends on God. Taking pills, drinking a lot of water, taking rest are like my new homeworks. By tomorrow, everything will be settled. I'm immuned from bacteria, invading harmful microorganisms. Because I'm ANTIBODIED....

Cried Again

2009-07-18T03:31:00.000-07:00

I really can't bear the feel of loneliness. There's always a voice that cried out:'' Hey, why not go out and find one guy to be in love?'' Just like other people in the street, smiley faces couples, went on their dates, being happy the whole day through. It's a happy story. But, when I think back, Should I need a guy so desperately? Just to fall in love? Walking together, holding hands, catching for the latest movies? All that it's a very far dream, so far that it's a mission impossible to reach it. Life's not always a bed of roses. I'm very clear of that. Love can't be forced. It comes automatically, without a trace, no smell, no shape, no colour. But there's one key point: Love cut down the distance between two strangers' heart, from different places. I believe there's a guy for me out there, on this Earth, fated, as being scheduled by God. I'll just have to do nothing and look forward for every planned events. Smile :D

I miss you

2009-07-18T03:11:00.000-07:00

It had been the first time i received a message from a guy, saying : '' I miss you.'' I don't know whether he's saying deep bottom from his heart or just trying to cheat me, or else. If it's true that he wanna cheat my feelings, but at least he had got the inisiative to say it. Lately, i also received calls from him. Twice by yesterday, and once by last week, Saturday. I really feel excited. I feel that I'm not that lonely actually, there's a guy beside me, accompanying me along the path of my life. Though maybe it's just a short path, a short time being that he appeared in my life, I felt so grateful. Thank God for everything that It had set for me. My friends kept on advising me to be protective from that guy, don't believe 100% in him. That's why I kept observing. I used to be very cautious nowadays, not that I had got cheated before, but be rational on every minor things you are heading to. No one will expect what will happen by next second. Who knows? God knows. I will keep on observing him, not allowing him to cheat me, not to hurt me! I had got hurt twice, and it's hard to recover from that pain. I knew everyone experience that except those couples that married to each other by first love. Who's that lucky one? I'm sure out of that list. Okay, take in fresh air, suck in a great deal of air, STAND UP and there's million miles ahead of you! Walk On!

认真

2009-07-11T03:33:00.000-07:00

我觉得我们所做的任何事都应该要抱着认真，诚恳的态度。为什么？认真做的事往往都不会出多大的差错，除非你对某项事情一知半解，又不学会不耻下问,才让自己走入没有出口的小巷。认真是我最近领悟到的另一种道理，人生的哲学之一。我要以认真的态度来把学业搞好，更上一层楼！我还要积极的面对人生。学业对我来说是很重要的。我们这一代不是时常听到前辈说：‘‘你们这一代可是幸福多了，回到家，就可以专心于学业。我们(前辈)这一代放学回家，赶快把功课完成，就要立刻帮忙父母亲打理生意，做家务。等到一切办妥后，都已经是深夜了！哪像你们可以这么的享受,每天准时上网，在手机传简讯之类悠闲的活动。。。。’’。我相信这些对白没有百分百相似，也有蛮高的巴仙率来引起你的共鸣吧！所以，我们一定要在学业上加把劲，让我们在未来飞黄腾达，来报答两老的恩惠。我们要学会感恩。

写字

2009-07-11T03:08:00.000-07:00

写字
我不晓得从何时开始，我爱上了写字。我只知道，我要感谢我的小学一年级至三年级的班主任兼华文老师，郑玉华老师。印象中，一年级的我写的字都是马马虎虎，并没有什么特点。自从老师在背后的提拔，我对写字产生了兴趣，决定把原有的普通字体，脱胎换骨,打造漂漂亮亮且标准的字体。我并没有进行什么地狱式训练,我只敢说是努力的改变写法，研究笔顺，慢地爱上写字。
字体本来是一种表达自我的工具，而我把它以艺术的方面来看，它是中华文化的精髓。经过世世代代的字体改良，现在的简体字已经很难被 ‘‘缩’’ 了。不然，华文字体又迈入外星人的字体了！
简体字的改革是现代人的思想，是为现代人写字能快一些吗？只有创造简体字的人才晓得了！
字体，华文字体本来就是一门艺术。从以前甲骨文，到皇朝改良的柳体字，宋体字,颜字体，到现在的简体字。考古学家对甲骨文的浓厚兴趣，为了要了解它的诞生经过，生活。字体对古人来说到底是画还是字？中华文化是画亦是字，真是了不起！
所谓‘‘工欲善其事，必先利其器’’。对喜爱写字的人来说，文房四宝岂能少呢？文房四宝有毛笔，墨，纸(九宫格)和磨墨的用具。
现在市面上已经有包装的墨汁，根本用不上磨墨的用具。现代人只需一开墨汁的瓶盖，倒入一个小几上，便可以使用，开始提字。
写字，写毛笔字都必须一个字，静。只有心里静静地，才能写得好字。除了静，还要有耐力，慢慢地把字体完成。何为好字？我又不是书法家，我只可以说字体整洁，公整，就行了！
身为一位华裔子弟，而且也认识华文字，我感到自豪！我为中华文化而感到自豪。从古至今，我们华族像是被看扁，瞧不起的族群，特别是外国人。可是现在的我们，是不一样的族群，不必被任何人看扁，我们和外国人平起平坐，不分你我，外国先进，我们中华民族也不落人后！
华人万岁！

Forget & Stand Up

2009-07-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

In this world, we meet a lot of unpleasant things. What we need to do is just set our mind to forget all those depressing things. What for that we are living on this Earth? We like nice stuff, people. After going through all saddie, STAND UP and face TOMORROW!!!

Stubborn

2009-07-04T02:35:00.000-07:00

I try to ask myself am i too stubborn anyway? to keep on thinking of perfect guy... there's no perfect guy in this world..whole Earth. so what am i thinking? i try to keep myself on the study track, but easily distracted by other alluring objects, guys and stuff. I think i just pull myself out of that trap. Stand up girl!!!!!!!!! There's other meaningful things for you to accomplish, and think about your family, friends, your life. You are the only one who lead your own life. Who else?

i'm totally +VE

2009-06-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

I think being positive by everyday is really important. smiling always is the key i think.
Saying ''chilling cold'' jokes, sharing them with your gang of friends. Laugh of loud. That's what life should be right?Everyone is not borned to be humourous. The main point is loose yourself out, don't pressure yourself too much, RELAX & CHILL OUT!!! saying cold jokes need not much of training or practices, twisting out meanings of some words..that's simple, isn't it? Try it then and be POSITIVE +VE

Release is better than anything

2009-06-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

Release may be like a short pain, but soon i'll revive from it and be whole new ME!
I don't really mind being temporary sad, depressed, down, because i'm sure that i'll get out of
that person...his shadow. I forgot since when i knew i could stand by myself, pain is tolerable.
I'm confident that i'll be me after all. Meeting him by every sunday is like dragging myself into that
sweet yet painful dream again. Now, i'd nothing in contact about him. Deleted his hp. no, msn, facebook, everything. And his face will soon fade from my heart. Good. Release is the best way to forget him. I believe.

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2009-05-25T01:35:00.000-07:00

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